Good evening! Play or Work! How do you feel when you approach your space to write? As many of you already know, I am a professed perfectionist…I’ve been committed to identifying the strengths in being a perfectionist to intentionally guide my writing behavior. My first attempt at NaNoWriMo was not easy – I was really ready to surrender to defeat – fortunately, I had strong support – my loving daughter kept encouraging me with Mr. Walt Disney’s” words – “Keep Moving Forward!” – each time she witnessed me staring at my laptop screen from the middle of the 30-day challenge clear to the very end. Then, after feeling that I had exhausted all my creativity at 30,000 words and only 7 Days left on the calendar – my wise son used reverse psychology on me with the same words I would shower on him as a youth — here’s how that dialogue exchange unfolded – Me: “I have nothing more to add to this story, I have failed at my first attempt to complete this writing challenge!” Son, “Mom, how do you know you can’t win this writing challenge — UNLESS you keep writing! You won’t know until you try to finish! Just keep writing and watch what happens!” Wow! How did I get such smart and savvy children! Their belief in my ability pushed me to dig deep inside my soul and utilize every ounce of my creative ability. I sacrificed sleep to complete 8,000 words in one day – which motivated to challenge myself to produce a higher daily word count – 2 days later, I sacrificed sleep again to produce 10,000 words. One day before the deadline — as I was compiling my files to form my completed story – I discovered an isolated folder I had not included in my word calculation that belonged in my story – a bonus – this put me slightly over the finish line goal of 50,000 words – earning myself a 1st time NaNoWriMo WINNER certificate for 2013. Although it was fun, it felt like a job – I didn’t want a skill I highly valued to feel like work. I decided to examine each of my writing episodes that I experienced during that 30-day period…my goal was to isolate moments my experience felt like play and those that felt like work. I discovered that my joyful writing moments happened when I trusted my ability to create more words – this led me to promise myself each following year to trust my writing ability! It worked! Trust is the key! — Trust allowed me to have a joyful writing experience. Trust took away self-doubt and exhaustion that is associated with work – trust replaced my feelings with calm and confidence that is associated with play. I find much more joy in my 30-day writing challenge when it feels like play. I look forward to entering my play zone in just 11 Days – 3 hours – and 10 minutes.
© Daily Writer Girl 10/20/2016